A possible rant, we will see.

Ok I have a few issues I would love to rant about. One of them I have just found out is a rumor. I had heard a rumor that some money was being circulated that did not have "In God We Trust" printed on it. Again it was just a rumor. Which takes some wind out of my sails. BUT there are other things I want to discuss. Like children singing praises to osama, I mean, Obama. The indoctranation of our children to sing praises to our prez in the tune of Jesus loves me, and the Battle Hymn of the Republic. If my future children can't sing Jesus loves me in school, But she can sing other words to the same tune all but worshiping a MAN. Where is our country heading? The battle hymn of the republic talks about when Christ was born across the sea, and Him dying to save men, let us die to make them free. . . The author wasn't talking about OBAMA!!!! I'm pretty sure about that. I'm pretty sure the Author of that song was speaking of my LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST! hmmmmmmmm Jesus Loves me? Battle hymn of the republic, Silent night, all old songs, all talking about THE God. now we have songs about obama? Again I ask WHERE IS OUR COUNTRY HEADING? When a guy will video a fellow student being beaten in the head with a 2X4, instead of helping him, He taped that young promising student DYING!!! Do I have to ask it again??? When having a video for youtube is more valuable than human life. . . . When meeting to get the olympics in chicago is more important than meeting with a General telling you that more troops are needed or we WILL lose. Have we lost sight of what is important? I'm going to leave that with you. before the man gets me for bashing the man in the big white house.


I'm out

I don't understand physics AT ALL!

Ok explain this to me:

I placed my oakley sunglasses on top of the back tire of my 37450 lbs. MRAP (truck) I put my bullet proof vest on, jumped in the driver seat and drove forward. I didn't realize I had left my glasses until about 500 meters later but could NOT go back and check on them. after I left the spot where I was parked another mrap drove through there, then 15-20 huge pieces of equipment, i.e. 20 ton dump trucks, track hoes, bull dosers, stuff like that came through. I just knew those glasses were in a million pieces. I was so mad at my self for putting them in such a stupid spot. BUT, here is the part i do not under stand. when we came in 5 hours later, my Platoon SGT. had them in his hand, IN ONE PIECE!!!!!!! he said another soldier had found them AFTER everthing had driven through. there are only a few tiny scratches on the very bottom of the lenses. If you set something on the top of a rear tire, drive forward, physics says they should fall off the front of the tire into the path of the now rolling tire. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???? I am not complaining at all!! but I don't understand!

I'm out

I don't know. . .

this one isn't going to full of insight. It's not going to reveal anything new I have learned. Actually it might just be all complaining. So if you don't want to hear/read complaining you might want to skip this one and pick back up with the next edition. I'm not backspacing and retyping or rewording anything this is 100% exactly what is going through my head.

This is probably one of the harder blogs I've written. So I am just going to jump right in. I feel alone. I feel left out. of everything. I know everyone I know back home and most that read my blog support the troops. and I do appreciate it. But I have lost sight of what I am doing here. I feel as though I might as well be on the moon. I don't know what is different this deployment than the last, but I never felt this way last time. It could be homesickness. I don't know. But I hear, and like hearing, everything going on back home. And feel like the rest of MY world is going on with out me. I web cammed with my 3 yr old neice last night and all we did was make faces at her, I got laughed at by more than a few guys cause I wasn't trying to hide what I was doing. I loved that time. But somehow that time period reminded me that I am so far from home. No I didn't expect everything in my world to stop and wait on me. I wouldn't ask for it to happen if I could. I am glad that everyone back home is strong enough to keep going while I am away. But it still hurts. I'm more than 9000 miles away from everyone that loves me, in a country where everyone hates me. Until you've been in these shoes you can't understand. I am leaning fully on God, but sometimes you just need someone to hug, someone to hold and know that it will be ok. to be able to look into the eyes of someone that you love and know that you know that you know that they love you more than anything. I feel like I am alone here. I have friends here. I have my brother josh here. But I still feel alone. maybe I'm just a little depressed right now. But I am supposed to be strong. Showing weakness here is not good, or smart. I'll be alright. I know I will. I have a wife that supports me completely. a family that has my back no matter what, and friends that wouldn't leave for anything. I know all these things.

But I still feel alone.

I'm out

One more song for my bride. . . .

Tangled up in you
Artist : Staind


You're my world
The shelter from the rain
You're the pills
That take away my pain
You’re the light
That helps me find my way
You’re the words
When I have nothing to say

And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

You're the fire
That warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold
As I grow old
You're the shore
When I am lost at sea
You're the only thing
That I like about me

And in this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you

How long has it been
Since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends
And goes like this forever

In this world
Where nothing else is true
Here I am
Still tangled up in you
Tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you


I love you my little puzzle piece



I'm out

To my Little puzzle piece

I didn't write this. But the words come from my heart.


Lyrics: Nickelback - Far Away
Lyrics taken from the: Video Edit
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreamin you'll be with me
And you'd never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreamin you'll be with me
And you'd never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
Far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long

So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go



I love you my princess. You make me whole. God put a brantley sized hole in my heart and you fill it perfectly. You compliment my personallity perfectly. You keep me grounded and God knows I need someone that can do that. I love you baby. I will love you for the rest of my life.

I'm out

continued. . .

Here in afghanistan I can see so many more stars than anywhere before. The arm of our galaxy the milkyway is plainly visible. I sit just about everynight and just stare at them. looking up and seeing that and thinking about everything that goes on in the universe that God has to control, makes me think. With everything that is happening in just our galaxy all the stars and planets that need to keep rotating around thier suns and on thier axis, Why does my all powerful, all knowing, omni-present God care about me? I'm not at all implying that He shouldn't. But in the grand scope of things I am less than a speck of dust in the universe. But yet He listens to me, He answers ME when I pray. And best of all He actually truely 100% CARES. It is just so astounding. In all of creation, HUGE COMPLEX galaxys, He LOVES 1 certain human being. He know the numbers of hairs on my head. I know that not a sparrow falls from the sky with out his knowing. But tell me what you think about this. PERSONALLY not biblically. Go out one night and just look at the stars. All of them. If your like me at all you will feel TINY but greatful that our living God loves, listens to, and cares about us.


I'm out

Quick short question.

Who am I that He should be mindful of me?
please don't leave a comment just yet let that sink in and I will expound on what I am getting at soon.


I'm out